Ask HN: I want to quit my job. I have no results for my efforts. Advice?
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Hi. So I've been working at this place as a Junior Software Engineer for about two months and it's been a great experience. I get to work with very experienced and amazing engineers and I am forced to adapt to best practices and it has improved the quality of my work greatly.. But the thing is the pressure is overwhelming. My managers do not give me any pressure and are kind but I still manage to feel this enormous pressure to perform. I put in the hours of work and yet I still have nothing substantial to say or show during standups and when I do manage to get some results and create a PR there's always a problem with it. I have three different tickets and I haven't managed to get any of them merged but my colleagues who were hired with me are making so much progress and getting PR's merged. I do put in hours but apparently they are not enough and I think I'm a bit slow. It makes me very anxious. Sometimes I get so anxious that I get scared of my PC. Anytime I see my PC during a break or the weekend my heart beats uncontrollably. I love this job. It challenges me to work harder but it's getting overwhelming and everyday I have to resist the intense urge to just send a message to my manager that I quit. What should I do? How do I cope?